I'm sinking like a stone in the sea.

I'm stressed out. I want to vent but the thoughts won't transform into words.

You just got off work, huh?

Another night feeling like the worst one.
You didn't even count your tips yet,
But you can tell that it ain't no big step.
I don't see why you so nice to customers
They're all fucks and low lives.
But don't fight, just keep the lip stiff
And get that money it's the weekend shift.
But why they all gotta be freaks.
Wish they would just eat and leave.
And keep they eyes to theyselves, already insecure, don't need any help.
But you can blame the pride that makes you hold your anger inside,
But deep down you wanna curse them all.
Fuck off asshole jerk off dirt ball.

You love the people that love you.
You hear the music they move to.
You give your ode to the fall through.
But you don't know you don't know you don't know you don't know.
You love the people that love you.

Now attitude check,
Still show up? You haven't quit yet?
And even when your meat gets sweet
They still treat you like a piece of meat. Huh.
Outrageous, each day this clock tick tock and you still a waitress.
Trying to pay them student loans
And the lights and the phone and the food and the home.
And you ain't quite broke but you couldn't afford that place on your own.
Gotta roommate, to split the rent with
Now you never feel independent.
And everything seems so hallow
Cause after work, where'd that smile go?
Better bring it back tomorrow.

-Atmosphere

Daylight, new day leaks through the window.

David Belle is my newest hero. A french stuntman and actor, he is trained in gymnastics, martial arts, and climbing. He's also credited for founding parkour, or the art of movement. It's an intense discipline, like an urban type of martial art. It's about conditioning and controlling your body and expressing yourself. And it takes a lot of balls. Check the vid:

I want to try it one day. I've yet to see a female in any of these videos, but I'll try anything once. Vagina trumps penis anyway.

Kacey is the cutest new bride to be ever:

Yes, that's a bag from condom revolution. Yes, Kacey did get lingerie and a bottle filled with some type of liquid. Yes, Kacey was surrounded by her and JJ's strict mormon grandma's, aunts, sisters and law's, etc. 

We love you Kacey ;)

Balloons or no balloons.

"It's time to forget the past and just learn to love what I have. 

Cause I love waking up to your laugh. "  - The Format

Anticipation has the habit to set you up.

Me and the l'Shaun saw Watchmen at Irvine Spectrum last night. It wasn't everything I expected it to be, based on what I saw in the previews, but I guess it's all a matter of perspective. The script could have been shorter and listening to the characters babble on and on made me want to stick bamboo shoots under my fingernails to keep consciousness. Seven stars, but it gets an extra star for playing Jimi Hendrix halfway through the movie :)

In other news:

My first step towards redemption.

-LC

Lazy days in Los Angeles

ENDURANCE

 

School is getting exceedingly difficult, and I lately I've been taking really long naps, although not on purpose. I finally quit smoking (yaay!), but I tend to indulge in a stog or two when I'm drinking. I've been feeling burnt out lately, like my time is not mine, but rather saved for work, school, training, etc. I need to take time for myself, I hate feeling like a rat in a maze. The reward is cheese but the cheese is bleu. 

A couple goals:

1. Run at least four times a week, running an extra mile every two weeks. Mission Coachella Body!

2. Find a new place to meditate, since my backyard feels empty, hollow and lifeless since I gave Sam away. I don't feel anything back there anymore.

3. Finish all my reading for all my classes. 

4. Make more money at work every night so I can afford to take more days off. Which probably means begging for closing shifts. Ughhhhhh.

5. BeProductiveBeProductiveBeProductive. Procrastination is my worst enemy. I need someone to motivate me. I need to motivate myself. 

6. Start saving for my piano, which means cutting back on useless stuff like clubbing and shopping. $600 to go. 

I'm pretty excited for this next week. Shwayze, LMFAO, and The Knux (yesss I get to see Amillio! ;] ) and then HARD. Oh and I cut my hair. Off. All of it. Think Halle Berry or Rihanna. Picutre updates sooooon.<3

-LC